bye web

status:

H-I-A-T-U-S
tnx <3

get a life. babuu.

andaming surprises ah! paumpisa pa lang ang 2010 eh, bumobonggangbongga na ang ulan ng biyaya..

thanks much Papa God.. :)

offtopic:

masaya ako. baket? basta masaya lang.
meron akong panibagong pamangkin. yehesss!

buzzing out. ;)

fail NOT!

kailangang mabilis. bawal ang kukupad kupad. 0-ten na*. >:)


hahahahah. *semi bastos anyways...

taon lang ang nagbago. pero ako? same old me. natutuyo na naman ang utak ko and sorry blog at ngayon pa lang kita naisipang iupdate. eh kase naman (kunyari) busy ako. hmm.hmm. (repeat till fade) lol.

TO BE HAPPY. <-- goal ko for this year. oo. dahil sobrang nagpapakaloser na ko nung mga nakaraang taon. oras na para magpakamatay sa tuwa.

CHEERFUL MODE: ACTIVATED.

so eto na. oo. gumawa gawa rin ako ng listahan ko kuno ng pekeng nuyers resolution. at baket peke? dahil alam kong magiging epic fail lang ang lahat ng to. goodluck to me.

MORE: water
LESS: carbonated drink

MORE: milk
LESS: kape

MORE: blog posts
LESS: pangungulangot

MORE: iron-rich food
LESS: rice :((

MORE: books to read
LESS: internet life. *sos*

MORE: honesty.
LESS: liiiiiiies! >:D

MORE: gawa.gawa.gawa
LESS: procrastination

MORE: tulooooooog.
LESS: puyaaaaaat.

MORE: study
LESS: gala

MORE: me
LESS: you!

MORE: english
LESS: tegeleg

MORE: self-esteem
LESS: pagkahiya.

wala na kong ibang maisip.at napapagod na kong magtype. i'll update this pag me naisip pa ko.
maidagdag ko lang tong mga plano ko for 0-ten.

**move on
**visit cebu.
**magBOHOL KAAA!!
**review for board
**be an RN *LOL*
**converse with Sir Joseph daily *pro photographer*
**by dec. dapat bukas na ang internet shop mo!
**FLIPPAGE ang pangalan!
**house.
**repaint.
**renovate.
**buy.
**wala na munang boys ha? okei? okei!
**gaya ng dati. visit uncle hans.

wala na. yun lang.

byeeeeee.

2010 welcome!

limang oras at apatnapung minuto na lang at magpapalit na naman ng taon. tuluyan na nating lilisanin ang 2009. at kung anuman ang dala ng taong papalit eh walang nakakaalam maliban na lang sa mga naglilipanang hula-hula at spekulasyon.

sos. maniwala ka sa mga yan.

2009.

naging napakasama mong taon saken. at sa buo kong pamilya. sa pagkakatanda ko, naumpisahan naman kita ng tama at buong pag-asa kitang sinalubong noon. subalit ito, nagdurusa ako sa pagtatapos mo. alam mo na kung baket.

hindi namin inasahan ang pagkawala ni mama. ni sa hinagap hindi namin lubos maisip. at ni di pa rin ako makapaniwala na wala na nga siya.

binawian rin ng buhay sa taong ito ang mga taong maimpluwensiya sa kani-kanilang fields. pano ba isasalin sa tagalog yun? nevermind. kasamang nagbabu ni mama sina tita cory. francis m. si johny delgado. si gigi. si yaya luring at syempre si michael j. nakakalungkot isipin.

maswerte pa rin ako kahit papano. marami ring buhay ang nakalas nung kasagsagan ng bagyong Ondoy. nasa ospital kami ni mama nun. kasalukuyan siyang nagtitimpla ng gatas ng itanong nya saken kung umuulan pa ba sa labas. at ito ang naisagot ko sa kanya "bumabagyo po ata ma eh." ata" susme. bagyongbagyo nga pala talaga.

higit pa sa mga nasalanta, kami. sila nawalan ng bahay. kami, nawalan ng nanay. gayunpaman, hindi iyon dahilan para kamuhian ko ang buhay at ang mundo. eh ganon talaga eh. may nauuna at may nahuhuli.

masarap pa sanang magbalik tanaw eh ang kaso kesa sa matuwa, mas nararamdaman ko ang lungkot at dusa.

siguro tama na munang itigil ko na to, bago pa ko maiyak.

ps.

pasko at bagong taon. wala pa rin akong lovelife. gaya ng dati :X

BAKA SA SUSUNOD NA TAON MERON NA!! YEHEEEEEEEEEY!

2009

goodbye.

it's been a harsh year for me. lot of things did happen till now i'm still coping with all those changes.

i am still on the process of making myself laugh. laugh with my own fault. laugh with me. and i dont think you understand what i'm talking about.

and i also guess..

i am still on the process of letting things go.

iwishiwontbehereanymoretomorrow.

anti-xmas

yeah.

i am.

i

i am aixz de guzman and i have a strange sense of humor, i don't laugh when you expect me to laugh (happens almost everytime) maybe because i am corny or slow or just plainly not in the mood to play with stupidity..

i am 21 turning 22, looking young and alcoholic.. i love alcohol's effect on me.. i feel clean and germ-free and.. idk.. i just love.. alcohol.. it's smell.. and.. oohh everything

i am nerdy/geeky/dorky by means and ways.. i can't help it.

i am into writing,music and click.snap.flash!

i burst into songs (i do sing in the banyo.XD).. get wasted with pen and paper.. and i always have a thing for black and white photos.. i love black and white.. the sad aura.. the drama.. everything :) it makes me happy all the time.. it's ironic.

i don't watch tv.. i get updated through the internet.. i know it's sad.


i am anti-social. it's true.
i like being alone.
but that doesn't mean i hate talking/dealing with people because it irks me everytime.. i'm easy to work with.. it's just that.. i'm not into people at all....not anymore..

i like food.. free food.. sweet stuff.. tasty stuff.. candies.. and.. acids.

i like to work for people..

i love to eat... to sleep... to eat.. and to sleep..

i like loud music.. rock works on me.. the fray + paramore = heaven..
senti music is my weakness too.. it gets on my nerves.. creeps.. gives me the chills and surprise! HIGH!!

i hate wasting time..

i like keeping memories.. and laughing at em whenever i remember em!

i like empty streets.. skies.. rain.. coffee..

i play with words.. i love words..

i'm into baby stuffs.. but i hate babies.. specially when they cry.. i hate ugly kids too.

i don't like gifts..

surprises will do! :D

i am the almost eldest child.. my sibs are "artistahin" and yeah.. forget about me.

i always complain about how boring my life is.. but.. to think of it.. i must love it bec of having almost everything i want but yeah.. this is me, my mind, my life and my point of view.. so don't mess with me...

i'm still grateful though.. :)

i am careful with my feelings and emotions.. i share some.. and keep a lot.

i don't believe in true love, destiny, soulmates, "happily ever after" , craaaap etcetera.

i believe in forever.. and togetherness.

wow, welcome to my life and congratulations because you now know everything about me!

duh, ofkarz not.

i don't even know who i really am.

all i want for christmas is MAMA.

christmas is coming. and it's so strange like yeah.

this will be the saddest christmas ever. coz mom's not with us. anymore.

i'll be happy seeing my younger sibs happy.

everything's gonna be okay. :)

no not anymore

napagisip-isip ko lang.

hindi nga pala talaga tayo. babagay. sa simpleng kadahilanan.

ETO KA NA. ganito pa lang ako..

napakalayo ng agwat natin sa lahat ng bagay. sa edad. sa pisikal na anyo. maging sa katayuan sa buhay. siguro sapat lang na isipin kong magpasalamat na minsan may naligaw na ikaw sa magulo kong buhay.

mali rin ata ang naisip kong plano. tamang tama. maling mali ang baguhin ang sarili ko para lang pumantay sayo. hindi ko kaya.

mas gugustuhin ko pang mamatay nang ganto ako. may batang puso. mababaw ang kaligayahan. malawak ang pananaw kesa ang maging gaya mo na hindi alam kong papano pasayahin ang sarili. mahirap yun. mas mahirap sa geometry.

hindi ko pinanghihiniyangan ang gaya mo. bagkus gaya ng nasabi ko nung una. nagpapasalamat ako.

na minsan me nagturo saken kung pano pulutin ang basag na pinggan sa sahig, itapon sa basurahan ang mga dapat ng itapon at ngumiti sa buhay.

maraming salamat.

xoxo.

gift ko? ibalot mo!

so much about hate, pain, anger, suffering and agony.

it's christmas by the way :D

P.S

i'm accepting cannon 450d for gifts wahahaha.. or.. or..
ahm nikon 60d :p

wala na. yan lang :D